Friday, June 17, 2011

Friday

Snuggled up, in my bed with the curtains pulled, I know it's dark outside. The early light is shining, but the clouds and mist are hiding it.
I woke up in the middle of the night and I fell back to sleep sometime a few few hours later. It was still Friday.
Today I seem to feel a little bit better today. I'm feeling some of the nervous energy that says "come on... Let's get something moving .. It's been days you've been sick and done nothing." how do I respond to that? Do I get a move on? Or, do I take it easy for one more day?
I decided I can wait for one more day. "baby steps," a good friend of mine said. I think she is right. There is no sense in rushing, just to end up getting sick again. I don't want to get sick like this again. I've been sick.. But this was crazy for a few days, leaving me as weak as a lamb.
And so it's Friday. I figure there is no reason I can't take care of a few creative ideas from right here. Safe and sound. Giving my poor body one more day of food and rest. Then next week I can catch up with all the things I couldn't do this week. Maybe it may take two weeks... That's ok.
I am so blessed to be here. To have what to do, and a worth while project to work on. The "Stem Cell," project is a calling and one that I hope will make a difference in the lives of those going through this traumatic time in their lives. It has become my joy, my passion, my love and my life. I believe I was born for this. It's a new beginning. It's a new life. Hoping for a healthy world!


Always,
Tammy

Tammy Abbott Fine Arts
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Thursday, June 16, 2011

Minute By Minute

This week has been trying to say the least. I don't know why or why I became so sick, but boy was I! This morning I feel a bit better, good enough to make a post here. Just so that you know I haven't forgotten my promise to keep up.
It always seems so dark when I'm not feeling well. What I mean is that that days look darker. The time goes slower, and it just feels like the feelings of pain and being uncomfortable to put it mildly will never end. But I know it will. I know inside my mind that tomorrow will be different or with a little luck, better. And so, with that in mind I'm hoping today is the day...
I need to get back to work and and at least do a little bit. My list of things to do is very long. But I suppose it's nothing that can't wait. I want to make sure I am really on the mend. It will take a few more days.
I can't remember the last time I spent a week in bed. That's just crazy! But when you can't move... You can't move.
I'm hoping I have some really good news on my next post. Because there are some really good things in the works. So stand by. Good news is coming.. As soon as I can get moving again. Always....


Always,
Tammy

Tammy Abbott Fine Arts

Friday, June 10, 2011

At The Getty

I woke up to a text this morning from my friend David B. He asked me, "Do you want to go to the Getty with me?" I've been meaning to go there, it's a place where I used to escape the madness of the city and the familiar feeling of my home. I am a stack reader, so I get to use the entire library.. but my card had expired and I needed a new one. I was so happy because it was granted! And now I can research and work on my Journal I'm writing. More on that later...
David picked me up about noon. And I was ready to go, so we zoomed up the hill listening to Bob Dylan, as we drove. He made a compilation of his music, rock and roll. The drive was fun on Mullholland.
When we got their and parked the car, he said get in the wheelchair there were many of them their. So I did. The walker wouldn't have taken me very far. I would have been too slow, and in too much pain. So David wheeled me for




, that's what he said.
We had a little lunch, then went to see Evan Walker's Cuba. It was a wonderful show, and there where other photographers work displayed as well. I just can't remember their names. Sorry... I'm not good with names. I wish I was. To the gift shop we went, then home again. That was my day. It was so good to just be... for a change.
So now it's after three, and it was time for me to get back to work. Typing away, filing paperwork, figuring things out so that I don't forget what I need to do. My list is so long after two years of illness you wouldn't believe it if I told you. But I'll get it done. That's all that is to it!

Monday, July 06, 2009

Songs Outside My Window

It seems my life has taken a turn, and so now is the time to get back to writing. To trying to make some sense of my life. But does life ever make sense?
It's the middle of summer and the birds are kind enough to visit me every night to sing their songs. Songs they never sing during the day. I will have to take some time and record them. But for now, I think I'll just let them sing me to sleep.


-- Post From My iPhone
On the run ... Tammy Abbott

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

KIDS "I Love Them"

During the course of any given week my assignments involve children. They can be in school, playing sports, or in the park. It seemed to be just another typical assignment in a classroom, but as I discoved and keep discovering, there are no typical assignments. Childern are always inspiring.
Late March, I received 19 letters from Mrs. Svab and Ms. Junge's class at RD White Elementary School in Glendale. Being a mother myself you might imagine how excited I was to open the package and see the thoughtful effort and sweetness that went into each and every letter.
I posted these examples because they were colorful, but all of them were worth posting. This was an amazing gift, one of the best I've ever received. THANK YOU CLASS!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

PhotoShelter

This is a link to an important article about backing up data. I use PhotoShelter and it's a great service. All photographers should know about storage options and backing up their data. If you're a photographer, work must be backed up at least twice on hard drives. Yes it's costly, but necessary.
Studies have been done on the life span of CD's and they do deteriorate, the effect looks like color bands running through the image. The end result is no matter how good the CD, (gold) they don't last forever, and they can become scratched, rendered unreadable.
I started using hard drives long ago to back up my work instead. One primary back up and a secondary back up.
Digital imaging is a great medium, but nothing keeps like good old fashion film, which many of us no longer use, especially photojournalist who have a deadline everyday.
A few years ago I interned at the Los Angeles County Museum of at in their Photography Department. While there I asked a curator what would be the best format the safest way to store something. Their answer was simple, and from a simpler time.... graphite on paper, it lasts hundreds of years if stored properly. The answer always haunted me, oh the "good old days!"

Sunday, March 18, 2007

THE COUNTRY


The most beautiful time of year has arrived up in Springville. My
mother asked me where I took this picture and I told her right in your
backyard. Sometimes when we're so close to beauty, we don't even see
it. Just another small reminder that I have to look around everyday to
find beauty, but I don't have to try very hard... It's all around me. I
have to admit that I miss the country very much, yet the city has it's
advantages and it's own beauty, only different. There are books written
on this subject, how to see light, beauty, etc. But one only has to
open their eyes and be will to look for that interesting building, or
that lovely smile that lights up a face, a sunrise or sunset.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

MEMORIAL MEMORIES PAST AND PRESENT


While on assignment Friday, March 9, at the Los Angeles Memorial Sports Arena I hurried in to shoot a robot contest that was in progress. After calming down and finding my subjects, I started to look around, imagining moments that have come and gone over what has been almost 50 years of sporting events, concerts and much more. The floor that I walked on was old and made for the Ice events, this was the home of the Los Angeles Kings. I tried to smell the air, for some sent of ice, but none lingered. I looked up at the scoreboard, imagining all the games that were played by the Los Angeles Lakers from 1960-67 and the Los Angeles Clippers from 1884 -1999.
The long byways and the structure of them made for interesting images, with millions of people who have walked these byways, one can almost feel a faint excitement in the air.
A lonely telephone booth sat off in the corner on the main floor, simple, made of wood. I have no idea how long it has been there but I wondered about the many who must have made phone calls from behind the door, which is now open, the booth vacant. What did we do without cell phones? There was a lot more to tell our friends and family when we got home wasn’t there?










The portrait of Nixon surprised me and looking closer I discovered that The Los Angeles Memorial Sports Arena was dedicated by Vice President Richard M. Nixon July 4, 1959.

The portrait of John F. Kennedy inspired me, “We stand at the edge of a New Frontier, the frontier of unfulfilled hopes and dreams. It will deal with unsolved problems of peace and war, unconquered pockets of ignorance and prejudice, unanswered questions of poverty and surplus."
John F. Kennedy made his acceptance speech in 1960 to the Democratic National Convention at the Los Angeles Memorial Coliseum in July of 1960 as the Democratic nominee.
Little pieces of history are all around us and sometimes it’s nice just to stop and take a closer look.
The plaque dedicating the Los Angeles Memorial Sports Arena inscribed at the top reads, “In Recognition of all who served their country in all wars and in special tribute to those who gave their lives in service.”
At the bottom reads “When the one great scorer comes to write against your name, he marks not that you won or lost, but how you played the game,” by Grantland Rice.
The arena holds 16,000 fans, but the parking lot only holds 6,500 and anyone who has gone to a recent event there or a USC game knows that is a major downfall of both event sites.

Another interesting fact that I found is that it only cost 7 million dollars to build in 1959, money that was raised from bonds. Knowing this, I would think that someone would build a proper parking structure since both arenas are wonderfully historic and great places to go, but I digress.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

IT'S NOT JUST A SONG


On an early winter morning I got up early to go on an assignment that would test my limits and push me to heights that I haven't been to in years.
I would be climbing Mt. Baldy with five members of the Montrose Rescue Team and a few of my co-workers. This was a training exercise. The mountain is about 10,000 feet and while my co-climbers made it all the way around the mountain, I did make it to 9,600 feet, just about 400 feet short of the top. While that doesn't seem much, the last 400 feet were for the most part, straight uphill. Though most of the trail was a narrow rocky climb uphill as well.
This was the first time I had ever attempted to go on such a hike. I grew up in the mountains, but I always had a horse underneath me doing all the work. The serenity of the day and a feeling like I accomplished something was a wonderful feeling. It's nice to know that when in a pinch I don't need a horse to get me there... I can do it myself.
And the top of Mt. Baldy is not covered in sauce, any meatballs or spaghetti; we had to bring our own food and water. It's a shame really; I was looking forward to a good Italian lunch!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

ANOTHER KIND OF CAT


These past few weeks have gone by very fast. Time moves very fast these days... is it technology? It seems the more I do, the more I have to do... Today I named this new generation of young adults "post modern hippies." It was received well by a friend of mine... more about that later. In the meantime, just chill.. like the Snow leopard.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Kiss The Kitty, NOT THE FROG

Sometimes, when I'm not on assignment I wish I was... for example my visit to the Santa Barbara Zoo was really nice. The zoo is beautiful and the animals are well kept. When coming upon the Lion den, everyone was in for a surprise... the big cat was sleeping right up against the plexi-glass. It was an amazing site, to see the lion and to see the reaction of the children.
Another interesting attraction was the poisonous frogs. They were so small, and so beautiful, like little jewels. Pretty little things that kill.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

TURN ABOUT IS FAIR PLAY

Photo by Michael WilliamsMy job is amazing, challenging and interesting. We have to adapt to all kinds of situations, never knowing just what the outcome will be.
Last Sunday was a typical day. I had my marching orders (list of assignments) and headed out into the blazing hot sun. It was an unusual kind of day in that I had to visit many different places, a tour of private ponds as well as a tour of private and public art galleries. One of my last stops was an artists home, the art was great, and they were lovely people. As it turned out, there were other like minded photogs there as well, company of the artists, and well, I became the subject of my assignment. I must say this is the first time this has happened to me... sometimes it's o.k. to let your hair down so to speak, although mine was up under my cap.

GLITTER GIRLS

One more example of "Girls Just Want To Have Fun." This day, they wanted to have fun.. make a mess.. become part of the mess, etc.It was an innocent activity, gone wild, Rachel and Sarah started out making a scrap book, which escalated into a full on glitter-glue fight. Running around the house, and down the street. In about ten minutes the damage was done.And the fun had been.. a rare moment to capture, as their fleeting teenage days are about to come to an end.A kiss goodbye, and upon my return.. everything was spotless.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

A CONVERSATION

Conversations about photography and opinion can be thought provoking, and I feel it is always good to ask ourselves questions that keep us in check and to remind us as photojournalists why, how, when and where we take our images... After viewing the beautifuly stylized photos taken by Greenberg, they are but a moment in time, an art concept, which has nothing to do with photojournalism. Yet still, the conversation is facinating and I wanted to post this for that reason.
The question is.... for all you photogs out there... would you take these images? How would you take these images? And why?

photography
Exploit and Click
The fuss over the photographer who makes kids cry.
By Jim Lewis
Posted Friday, July 7, 2006, at 6:35 PM ET

Like many people, I dislike having my picture taken, and the fact that I love to look at photography, to think about it, and sometimes to write about it, has done little to leaven my antipathy toward participating in it. Having a camera pointed at me makes me self-conscious, a feeling I do my best to avoid; and it prick! ! s my vanity. (I used to tell myself I was simply unphotogenic, but in time I came to realize that, no, in fact I just look like that.) Moreover, I always wind up feeling slightly violated: My countenance is among my most intimate possessions, and when a photographer makes off with an image of it I feel like I've been fleeced. Anthropologists have described isolated tribes who would not allow themselves to be photographed by Western visitors because they were convinced that some part of their soul was being stolen. There is something to be said for such a belief.

Exploitation is photography's true métier: I take that to be a fact, though not such a damning one as it may appear to be. There are other professions, after all, that traffic in similar kinds of advantage-taking (psychoanalysis is one; journalism is another), and exploitation, like anything else, can be well or badly done. Some photographers negotiate it nimbly, with a kind of moral intelligence, and the art th! ! ey make is brilliant and enlightening; and some are clums! y or cra ss. Which brings me to the work of Jill Greenberg and the quarrels that have sprung up around it in the past few weeks.

Greenberg is an L.A.-based photographer whose work, judging from her Web site, the all-too-aptly named www.manipulator.com, has generally been commercial and editorial: ads for Target, portraits of celebrities, that sort of thing. But she also has a small art career, showing more conceptual work in galleries, and she has an exhibit up now at the Paul Kopeikin Gallery on Wilshire Boulevard. The show is titled End Times, and it consists of a few dozen large photographs of infants and toddlers throwing tantrums: sobbing, red-faced, staring furiously. Fair enough. But they're not meant to be read as mere baby pictures; they're meant to be a statement. As Greenberg herself explains in the gallery's press rel! ! ease, "The first little boy I shot, Liam, suddenly became hysterically upset. It reminded me of helplessness and anger I feel about our current political and social situation." "As a parent," she continues, "I have to reckon with the knowledge that our children will suffer for the mistakes our government is making. Their pain is a precursor of what is to come."

This is the sort of art that makes one groan and roll one's eyes. It's political in the worst way: literal-minded, preachy as a bumper sticker, and, well, infantile. Moreover, the pictures themselves don't look very interesting (for one thing, Greenberg seems to think that size—the photos are 42 inches by 50 inches—is a substitute for power). But lots of people make bad art without inspiring the kind of fury that Greenberg drew down upon herself. Her mistake was not in her meaning, but in her method.

It turns out that Greenberg doesn't just hang around her studio waiting for one of her toddler subjects t! ! o melt down: She induces the tantrum, by, say, giving the! child a lollipop, and then suddenly taking it away. When a photography enthusiast who goes by the pseudonym of Thomas Hawk discovered as much, he pilloried Greenberg on his blog, in a post that can be summarized by its headline: Jill Greenberg is a Sick Woman Who Should Be Arrested and Charged With Child Abuse. The post generated a few hundred comments, and the discussion spread to Flickr, and then to other blogs, and then finally to BoingBoing. Most of those who weighed in came down on Hawk's side. Greenberg responded in an interview on PopPhoto.com.

It looks like what's going on here is the standard "can good art be made by bad people" debate, but to the extent that that's so, it's uninteresting. As Faulkner once said, "If a w! ! riter has to rob his mother, he will not hesitate; the 'Ode on a Grecian Urn' is worth any number of old ladies." But Greenberg isn't Keats, and bad art neither deserves nor receives the kind of moral pass that Faulkner was endorsing. An asshole who makes great art is an asshole who makes great art; but an asshole who makes lousy art is just an asshole.

On the other hand, Greenberg isn't Leni Riefenstahl, either. Small children, as she points out in the PopPhoto interview, often have tantrums, and they usually blow over quickly, and are just as quickly forgotten. To provoke tears in order to take a picture is objectionable, and worthy of some condemnation. But it's not as if she beat them with a belt because she wanted to photograph their bruises. On this front, it seems to me, Greenberg was wrong, and Hawk overreacted, and there isn't much more to be said.

But an insight can be sifted out of Greenberg's peccancy and Hawk's cant. Photography tends to magnify and di! ! stort both deeds and misdeeds—more so than other art fo! rms, and in fact more than almost any activity I can think of. The specter of exploitation hovers over it, and it's this, I think, that accounts for Hawk's disproportionate outrage. If Greenberg were making infants weep in the service of a psychological experiment, one might feel uneasy, but the dismay would no doubt be tempered by one's sense that a greater good was to come of it. If she were doing it because she wanted to, say, draw them, or write poems about them, many people might still find it objectionable, but not, I don't think, to quite the same degree. Indeed, if she were doing it just for the hell of it, we would consider her cruel and culpable; but the fact that she made them cry so that she could take their pictures somehow makes it worse.

The point becomes clearer, or at any rate starker, by comparison with pornography. In most states, the age of consent is 16 or 17, but federal law stipulates that you can only be photographed having sex if you're 18 or older. Two ! ! 17-year-olds can copulate to their hearts' content, and their friends can watch: However creepy it may be, no laws would be broken. But they can't be photographed in the act, nor can anyone, of any age, so much as look at such a photo. The picture has a legal status quite different from the thing it pictures.

This is as it should be, for many reasons; but one of them is simply that photography is, in its essence, a form of predation, and its being so transforms the meaning of the scenes it shows. The power of the photographer over his or her subject is immense, and not just because one can manipulate the other, or even because one acquires and owns an image of the other. A photograph is, as the vernacular has it, something you "take," but the taking isn't simply material: It's metaphysical, and it's moral (I would say it's spiritual, if the word didn't seem vapid).

Exploitation lies at the root of every interaction between a photographer and a human subject, and ev! ! ery photographer worth a damn knows this. It is unavoidab! le, it i s intrinsic to the very act taking pictures, and the most sophisticated photographers work their understanding of it into their practice, in various subtle ways. I've watched dozens of them at work, and each has a different method: Some bond with their subjects, some boss them around, some flirt and seduce, some ignore, some distract, and some just watch. But with the best of them you can see something in their eyes, and in their work, that proves their trustworthiness and creates a kind of complicity. Jill Greenberg is decidedly not one of the best, but her clumsiness inadvertently reveals a fundamental truth: Taking a picture is a deep and ethically complex thing to do, and everyone who engages in it is compromised, right from the start.

I don't mean this as a condemnation of photography. On the contrary, I love the medium, and it fascinates me endlessly, precisely because it's so freighted with the problem of power and responsibility. It is born in a bed of plunder an! ! d abuse; but in the right hands it can end in beauty, and how we get from one to the other is as profound a grace as any art can manifest.

Jim Lewis is the author of three novels, most recently, The King Is Dead.

Article URL: http://www.slate.com/id/2145277/
Copyright 2006 Washingtonpost.Newsweek Interactive Co. LLC

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

WHAT GOES UP....

There are moments in a work day from time to time when I as a photographer say to myself... "I have to do what?" Photographers will do almost anything to get THE PICTURE, even on a hot afternoon, under a blazing sun. This is not an exotic land or a distant place, it's right there in the heart of Glendale. As I was climbing and cursing my writer it became more and more clear to me that I must get some good art. The fear of falling with my equipment was never far from my mind, climbing or descending with two Mark II Canons... anything less than upright would be a disaster.
It's funny how some days turn into journeys and a quest to simply preserver and achieve the goal, while other days are just a walk in the park... perhaps Verdugo Park? The reward came with a view, it was sure pretty up there.

Monday, July 10, 2006

PARTY ANIMALS

There are times in a parents life when it's fine to say.... "I did a great job?" These two party animals mugging for the cameraas the apple of their parents eye... I'm sure. I think it's more like a state of being... yet, I know either one of them could become our next Senator, Governor or even President. God help us! In the meantime, if you see these two out on the street....RUN! Don't walk, they have the ability to suck the life out of you... that's how they always look so pretty, no matter what.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

SUMMER BLUES


Fireworks have come and gone, and it seems that I just might be in need of some ice cream. Chocolate Raspberry Truffle would do nicely, that always seems to pick-me-up. It seems that life is very complicated, nothing that tomorrow won't take care of. I'm just wondering how many tomorrows? I have said it often to my family and friends that when things are good with our children, life is good, and when there's a question of their happiness and wellbeing, well, life is just a bitch! No matter how good yours is. So, now you know what kind of mood I'm in. Even after a lazy afternoon with my boyfriend, FIREWORKS and two days off in a row, which is unheard of most of the year... here I am. Enough of that... I saw the most incredible display last night, fireworks were everywhere,I must have counted 20 displays if I counted one. With a panorama camera, I wonder how that image may have come out, my location will remain nameless, there was no parking to be found anywhere, which was one of my concerns, but thanks to my boyfirends sweet and generous offer to stay in the car (which I should have done too, just because).. this is what I have. Not much, but next year we know how to prepare to seek out our mission.
P.S. After the fireworks... there was fire which was quickly put out by the Pasadena Fire Dept.... The Rose Bowl is safe and sound!

Monday, July 03, 2006

GOING DOWN OR UP?


Yes that is Jay Leno at the Love Ride last year, maybe it was something that Fred said during this interview?

It's 4th of July eve, and I have an idea where I will be watching the fireworks this year... but I'm still not sure it will work out. If it does, you'll be seeing them real soon. On another note... after this week things should be picking up on the old web site construction and so as soon as it's done I will be linking everything together! I'm still looking for those images that I think I've lost, it's haunting me.

Yesterday at work was another crazy Sunday, my first without Fred in I would guess a year. I miss him very much, especially when we had an elevator incident at our offices and had to find out first hand just how fast the Fire Department is. They were very fast. And if it wasn't for the circumstances, I would have been taking all kinds of photos, but in this rare case there can be no evidence. That's as cryptic as I want to get...
Let's see what today brings..

ANWAY... GOOD LUCK FRED AT THE SAN GABRIAL TRIBUNE!

Saturday, July 01, 2006

BACK UP

A funny thing (or not so funny thing) happened as I was going to file photos the other night... to my horror (or maybe I'm being punished) my files were gone. Out of nowhere, vanished! So in some ways, I was sent to blogger hell for my lack of attention. This should be fair warning to all those who start blog sites and slack off... The Blog Gods do get angry!

Tammy Abbott

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Photojournalism is my passion, it's an amazing way to see and experience the world. I don't know if what I do will ever have a greater meaning then to fill the pages of daily newspapers. I've seen and felt first hand how important it is to approach the subject of my lense with kindness, respect and honesty. My background is in art and music. If I could express my feelings about life it would be embodied in the song made famous by Louis Armstrong, written by George Weiss and Thiele, "What A Wonderful World."

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